That being said, it's been almost two months since I wrote on here. In my mind I am constantly composing posts and generally narrating my life. But it takes a lot of effort and time to sit down and write a blog post. Not really, but I do have a lot going on in my life.
Since I last wrote...
I wrote a bajillion papers.
Took a couple of midterms.
Packed up my dorm room.
Helped friends pack their rooms.
Said goodbye to some of my best friends for the summer.
Went home for four days.
Went to InterVarsity camp for a week (it was really fun and helped get my heart and mind focused on Christ).
Started work.
Moved into my tiny room at home.
Started summer school.
Went to the bay for Labor Day weekend.
My family decided to move
Found land & the style of house we are going to build. (Hint: It's beautiful).
Turned 19.
Celebrated birthdays and graduations.
Chilled with cousins.
Bonded with friends.
Attended a gorgeous wedding.
Experienced my first school board meeting (A guy called God's wrath down on the school board :o).
And spent time with the fam.
Needless to say my days are busy and my heart is often rushed. I would be naive and conceited to say that I am the only one feeling rushed in heart & mind as well as disconnected from my Lord.
How often does life fly by without reflection on the glory of God?
Do you find that your heart is often hoping on things other then God? Things like time management looking attractive, affirmation from the opposite sex, friendships, family, etc. I most definitely do. But then I have days like today.
Days where I wake up & my heart longs for Christ. I turn on my ipod and the music sounds insufficient and weak. It does not fill me - no matter how loud it sounds or how much the music connects with my situation. My conversations with people seem fake and forced. Everywhere I go, I cannot escape my soul crying for time spent with Christ - reflecting on His Word and the reality of who He is.
When I do not spend time with Christ, I forget the reality of God. In the world full of God's design, creativity, and deity, I loose sight of him in my own plans and my selfish desires.
But then we intervenes.
He speaks quietly to my heart. Sending reminders of his glory and his importance in my life.
Yesterday, Psalm 46:10 appeared constantly. I think I saw/heard it in five different contexts.
Be still, Hallie. Know who I am. Know that regardless of what you do or say, I will be known and worshiped throughout the entire earth. I am worthy of this praise, but I do not need it. I am more then enough for you. You get so wrapped up in your own plans and ideals that you loose sight of my awesome, infinite, astounding, fear-inspiring, grand deity.
Humbling to say the least.
And then He puts other verses in my life to further remind me to be still and know that He is God.
"Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him. Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge." Psalm 62:5-8
Um. Wow.
No matter how insane my life might feel. Not matter the pressure I feel to be strong for my family - mom especially. No matter how overwhelmed and out of control I am. No matter the situation. God is my foundation and consolation. I can trust him & confide in him. And no matter what I do or say, he will protect me from the fiercest assault.
Be still & know.
xoxo,
The Blonde
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